Friday, August 6, 2010

August...

I've been feeling a bit melancholy this past week. August always does this to me. It's my birthday month and I spend a lot of time reflecting on what I liked and disliked about the past year and what I hope to achieve in the coming year. I've two more years in the fabulous forties and it has caused me to reflect a bit more on how I might want to spend them.

What made matters worse this week, was news of college friends that have passed away in the last year. One of Lou Gehrig's disease and one with a brain tumor. Both 48, both with children at home. And then yesterday, another college friend was admitted into a long care facility with MS. It has not been a good week.

So, as I am not one to dwell in the gloom and doom, I've been spending time with the boys. Trying hard not to lose my patience at their fighting and whining and fighting and whining. Hugging them when they don't want it and sitting and just being. Because you never know.



Enjoy your weekend everyone. I have my boys donating their time to the March of Dimes this weekend. I plan on having awesome shots to show you on Monday. It should be a fun day!

15 comments:

anmarie said...

Your post hit home. Just attended the funeral of a 47 year old mother of 3 boys today. Thanks for reminding us all to hug our kids!

Rose said...

I'm so sorry for your losses; it seems this is happening more in my life too as friends around the magic age of 45-55 are hit with cancers of various types. Good for you for your choice of therapy; hugs and family. Best wishes.

Denise | Chez Danisse said...

So sad. It just seems the 40s is far too young for so much bad news. You have me appreciating my life right now.

MadMad said...

Remember when you were a kid and 40 seemed so old? It completely FLOORS me that people I know are sick/dying/dead. It just doesn't make any sense to me, because I still feel like I'm.. 28? And 40s aren't supposed to be old, are they? But it's starting to feel more and more like they are. I've had a few losses/diagnoses this year, too. I wonder what it will be like when we're in our 60s. I think you have it exactly right - appreciate what we have, now. Big birthday hugs to you, honey! And I'm so sorry for your losses.

RW said...

Jane that is harsh.
I am in my my mid 40's. I have been working hard to appreciate my days off... relax and enjoy the moments when my son relaxes enough to let me hug him.
I wish for you a most pleasant weekend.

Linda said...

Life is precious isn't it. I am sorry to hear about your friends. Enjoy the fun with your boys, mine doeasn't like hugs so much these days, they grow up too fast!!

a friend to knit with said...

oh, jane. i am so sorry. same thing happening here. not people i know... just people i know of. two with melanoma's that were fatal. and yes. it is too young to die.
it really does make you appreciate the little moments. not look too far ahead. and be thankful for what you have.
hope your weekend is going well.
xx

Jill said...

I just wrote a post about missing the carefree 20s. I'm on your wavelength here.

It's really tough sometimes getting older. I also find that so many of my friend's parents are getting sick/dying. I think that's one of the down sides of facebook.

Oh, I'm sorry for such a downer comment. I'll try to turn it around: Happy Birthday!

Holli said...

Jane, I appreciate your honesty as you reflect this month and grapple with the pains of losing people that have been important parts of your life. May you feel comfort and peace. And may this month: August -- be one of renewal and restoration. Happy Birthday!

Kristyn Knits said...

Happy Birthday month Jane!
So sorry to hear of your friends and illnesses.
Reflection is good. I find it helps me move forward.
Hope your week is a good one.

ColorSlut said...

Happy birthday month. I say celebrate it every day (at least that is what I normally do) :) Chin up. I know when things are hard it seems impossible ... but you can do it!

Camilla~ Bloom said...

I am so sorry Jane...I agree with Denise 40 is just too young.
I am going thru some 40-ish weirdness...don't know if I am liking 40's or not so much.

I hope you have a wonderful birthday Jane...and you are such a loving and caring mom, it really shines thru.

Kerstin said...

I know what you mean. Our town has lost three vital people in their 40's over the last couple of years ... pulmonary embolism, Lou Gehrig's, and a brain tumor. All we can do is take it one day at a time, right?

Poshyarns said...

Oh Jane, these things really make you realise how fragile life is, you keep giving those hugs, whatever they say, every moment is precious. August is my birthday month too, in a few days I will enter my, hopefully fabulous, forties. It's rather daunting.

rosemary said...

sometimes i don't like growing up.....we must enjoy each day to it's fullest...right!

Happy Birthday Month!....isn't 50 the new 40...something to look forward to! :)